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Excalibur Summer-Blade
"You may call it madness but I call it creative genius"

I haven't been in the arts for a while and won't dare call myself an artist by any form but I am a person who would like to be. I am teaching myself photography, rediscovering writing and finding the joys of simply drawings. I hope in time my skills will improve to the point where I can call myself an artist but for now I am simply a student that wants to learn.

            One of the greatest barriers we impose on ourselves is judging our own success on the perspective of someone else.  Some of the time those barriers are based on others successes or what other think of our achievements and I think that is a disservice to our own growth as well as our own accomplishments.  I know I have been guilty of this more than a few times during my own life and I am sure others have been guilty in similar ways.  For the longest time I judge my professional success based one the achieves of others and not my own.  I kept thinking after so many years I should be making as much as others people with the same experience as I do.  I saw other people promoted through the ranks or already became a designer in their discipline.  This only resulted in me becoming dissatisfied with my career choices and regretting some career decisions, I made in the last few year.  On reflections, I see this same pattern happen to my creative work and still happening in my professional life.

            We judge our own accomplishment based on another persons accomplishments.  I am not successful in my job because this person has a better job or make more money than I do.  I am not as good of an artist as this person is and so on.  Such patterns of thinking only help create barriers around us preventing us from moving forward with our lives whither they be professional or creative. Such ways of thinking only creates unsurmountable obstacles to overcome that only serves to crush our own drives and confidence in ourselves.  The reality is there will always be people that may appear more successful than you or more talented but if you take a closer look at them you’ll notice something important. 

            Success doesn’t mean making the most money or having the best toys out there.  In the end those are just material items that can make life easier but necessarily more enjoyable.  The deciding reason to whither you are successful or not is whither your happy with your life or not.  Are you happy with the progression you’ve personally made with your career?  Are you happy with your artistic creation?  Were you able to produce what you originally had in mind?  How should I progress to the next level?  These are the questions you should be asking when you wish to judge your level of successfulness.  You should not compare yourself to anyone else but yourself.  Don’t let other people bully you into accepting their views of success or how to gauge your self-worth.

            I’ve done that myself in the past and each time I allowed someone else to accept their views of how my own life was going I regretted it.  Usually it resulted in great life upheavals that I still struggle with to this day.  So what if society views living with your parents as an adult as negative characteristic; doing so allowed me to pay off my student loans and return to school part-time to gain my Bachelors.  I’m not the greatest photographer in the world but I can say with full honesty that I am a better photographer than I was when I started.  So what if my career is not progressing how I would like it; may be it's time to shift my career focus or change careers altogether.  Because of the last two years, I have been able to reflect on what I want to do with my life and explore new alternatives.  I haven’t fully left my original career behind but I am now open to other possibilities on what to do with my life.

            Even time I try to compare myself to those around me all it causes me to do is fall into a deep depression and linger on the choices I’ve made in the path.  Such ways of thinking doesn’t help one move forward with one’s own life but causes them to live in the past and only with regret.  My father has told me more than once that I can only take one day at a time. Only recently have I come to understand that what he meant by that.  I can’t live my life as other think I would.  If I did it would be empty and empty of any meaning.  I can’t control everything that happens but I can control how I view life as a whole.  From now I want to take every event in my life as a chance to learn and grow.  My life is my own and I have to live it in a fashion that makes me happy.  If I kept allowing other people to dictate how I should be living my life than it wouldn’t be my own life but a shadow of someone else’s.  No one should live in anyone’s shadow. 

            Don’t allow other people’s perspective’s on your life decide how you live your live. Judge your successes based on your own defined milestone.  Progress with your life the way your  most comfortable with and enjoy it.  The time is a finite and something that should be consider the most valuable commodity we have.  Shouldn’t we spend the time we have on something we enjoy and make us happy than on something that only satisfies someone else need or wants?

  • Listening to: Audio Book
  • Reading: Enter Player One
  • Watching: Netflix
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: To much grease
  • Drinking: Water, and Coffee

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thank you for the Llama :)
Sat Jun 20, 2015, 6:35 PM
thank you for adding my art to your favorites! :D
Sat May 2, 2015, 11:30 AM


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Corinne-Michelle Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much for the fav!!
hellbat Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2015
Thanks for the fave.
greggorievich Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you for latest faves, you magnificent human.
ExcaliburBlade Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2015
Damn straight I am magnificent. 
RegenerationPlus Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for faving Regeneration Plus #02, full english version by RegenerationPlus
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